On first look, 2018 seemed like a big failure for me, then I reminded myself of what I know best and trust the most – my intuition…
A couple of days ago, my mind was wandering and I thought to myself “wow, what a big failure I was in 2018” … because my first thought was to equate success with money and revenue, and as a new entrepreneur it’s really all I could focus on when I was deciding whether or not 2018 was a good year. And then, I pushed myself to start my usual year-in-review rituals (I so invite you to do this too!).
First, I looked at some notes I had taken every month of this year and was blown away at all that I really had accomplished. If you have been following my journey, you may know that I left my corporate communications job almost 2 years ago (freeing!), gifted myself with a one-year sabbatical (life-changing!) and 2018 was really about figuring out who I am as a coach and speaker (my personal branding). Oh, and then finding the COURAGE to put it all out there (launched my biz May 13, yikes that was SCARY and EXCITING all at the same time!).
When I started reading through my 2018 notes, I was blown away at my personal transformation month-after-month in all of these areas and the courageous steps I took to speak out and step into what I intuitively know I am supposed to do with my life – teach, share and coach others around intuition in life and business. A year ago, I wouldn’t even have said that sentence out loud, never mind write it for all the world to see.
Second, I went through my treasure drawer. Throughout the year, I put my most special memories in one drawer as they happen — ticket stubs, heart-tingling notes and cards (especially from the kiddos), playbills, hotel receipts, pictures. You name it, it’s in there. This is where all the love in my life shines the brightest. I smiled, reminisced and sometimes happily cried as I remembered moments with family and friends, sharing big milestones or just having fun. I tied all of these items with a red bow and have tons of gratitude for the love and laughs and fun.
Tapping into Intuition
Third, I have so much fun with oracle cards (was certified last year) as a tool to tap into our intuition. So I pulled some cards asking the question “what I am most supposed to remember from this year.”
I pulled in this order … Here and Now (being fully present in the moment), Moonlight (follow your intuition), The Eyes of Beauty in challenger (are you looking at what is wrong instead of looking at what is right?). Then, I had 3 cards come out together – 8 of Air (say goodbye to illusions and see things as they are), King of Fire (spiritual influence, creative inspired leadership) and 10 of Earth (mastery, inherited treasures of knowledge for all I have been through). My last card The Cow I think is a look to 2019 – nourishment is never ending. Do your part and you will get what you need.
I really do love oracle cards because you can’t trick the system – your intuition!! This spread of cards really does tell my story for 2018. I followed my intuition, was very in the moment, aware of my personal transformation and giving myself the space to make it happen. I had to say goodbye to the old Christina (the illusion) and step into the intuitive, spiritual, inspired leadership Christina, taking all of my corporate experiences and international adventures from the last 27+ years as a companion. True, I didn’t make much money in 2018 and I was good at beating myself up about it (Eyes of Beauty in challenger). That’s gotta stop – it’s so not me! ☺
Laying the Foundation
As I went through these rituals, it became so clear that 2018 was the year of laying the foundation – sort of like a pre-launch phase or soft launch!
My intuition keeps telling me to proceed, so that’s what I am going to do… and I look back at 2018 as the success it was – finding me again and sharing all that I found with you!
Happy 2019 – I think it’s going to be a good one!